What is love?

I find myself constantly repeating this question in my head over and over again.Because in all honesty, i have no idea how it feels like to be so called "head over heels" for somebody, let alone "love at first sight".Yea,i do give a couple of love advices here and there,but half the time i've never experienced em.Sometimes it's hard to differentiate whether u love somebody or u just enjoy their companion.Occasionally i do have a few crushes but do i truly love em, or i just find em attractive.People nowadays throwing "i love you's" like air.

Back in primary school u would always have crushes on people who told u they love u, even now in high school the same theory applies.It's like "oh you love me?" "i love you too then" kinda thing.Even being in a few relationships here and there, i have never truly LOVE somebody.That never existing love sometimes made me question my sanity.Maybe all this time i've always been dating up to no good scumbags so i've completely lost my trust in guys.Maybe i've built this huge wall surrounding me, making me immune to this so called "love".Maybe i was one of the characters in "Delirium", and i was injected with some antidote to make me "immune" to love at a very young age.(( like a divergent themed thing ))BTW "Delirium" is such a good read, y'all must check it out sometime!

Anyways, guess i'll never truly find out what love is until i find THE ONE.But you know what i'm still like what? 16? I'll have an ample of time to go figure that out.(( That is so cringeworthy ))TBH i'm procrastinating rn from doing my Econs work.21 fucking pages due next Monday. *kms*

ps i love you